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ul class=loudtwitterliem12:44/em Subway for lunch and eating it IN a meeting. Not my favorite. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1254500223#/a/li liem16:27/em @a href=http://twitter.com/mamajoanmamajoan/a Not with our shared tweeps, no Top Chef spoilers. Im guessing well get it watched tonight. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1255396789#/a/li liem08:00/em @a href=http://twitter.com/thatpattithatpatti/a Have you tried the kind at The Andersons? It is also corn. I think it is called Clump n Flush a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1257901677#/a/li liem09:45/em @a href=http://twitter.com/hdeehdee/a must go google FLOR now! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1258229737#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazyimg src=http://1254500223.data.loudtwitter.com/72113268916743298 width=1 height=1 border=0 /

ul class=loudtwitterliem15:24/em Aetna called me today. Guess I was screened in as quot;high riskquot; a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1250691011#/a/li liem15:41/em @a href=http://twitter.com/swillardswillard/a I just means that the nurse will call me every 6 weeks and that I can call her with any questions. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1250758614#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazyimg src=http://1250691011.data.loudtwitter.com/72113268916743298 width=1 height=1 border=0 /

ul class=loudtwitterliem11:30/em just went to a meeting at work about something that will be helpful to the people of Ohio. How refreshing. Oh and lt; 30 minutes at that! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1245414834#/a/li liem12:41/em Megan picking me up for lunch before my appointment. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1245670364#/a/li liem17:33/em @a href=http://twitter.com/blondiekateblondiekate/a Wah-hoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1246773089#/a/li liem17:36/em NT measurement was good. Nasal bone present. 7 days for the blood test results. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1246781646#/a/li liem08:16/em @a href=http://twitter.com/blondiekateblondiekate/a That just sucks. Im so sorry. Dammit. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1249092219#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

div style=float: right; margin-left: 10px; margin-bottom: 10px;a href=http://www.flickr.com/photos/hopemcg/3307175513/ title=photo sharingimg src=http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3297/3307175513_1080cc31d3_m.jpg alt= style=border: solid 2px #000000; //abr /span style=font-size: 0.9em; margin-top: 0px;a href=http://www.flickr.com/photos/hopemcg/3307175513/Berry 12w 5 d/abr /Originally uploaded by a href=http://www.flickr.com/people/hopemcg/hopeandmegan/a/span/divWe had our nuchal today. The skin fold was 1.57 mm, which is a normal measurement. They also took some blood, but the results of that ( Ultrascreen ) will be back in 7 days.br /br /Berry was uncooperative and obstinate. As I recall, Quinn was very similar. This was fine with us because we got more camera time. S/he also measured an entire week older than s/he is - 13 weeks, 5 days. The tech said that wasnt a problem.br /br /The pics that they printed were ridiculous. Absolutely terrible. There were several nice profile views with nose and mouth visible. There was one time when Berry was definitely nibbling on his or her fingers. What did we get? Random limbs. Dont get me wrong, Im very happy that the limbs are there, but when you take an US pics to work, you dont want to say, Heres a picture of one of the babys arms. Nope, I dont know which one.br /br /Cute, huh?br /a href=http://www.flickr.com/photos/hopemcg/3308006772/ title=Berry 12w 5 d face-1 by hopeandmegan, on Flickrimg src=http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3146/3308006772_daeb8583ca_m.jpg width=240 height=178 alt=Berry 12w 5 d face-1 //abr /br /Here is a decapitated view with fingers.br /a href=http://www.flickr.com/photos/hopemcg/3307176063/ title=Berry 12w 5 d-2 by hopeandmegan, on Flickrimg src=http://farm4.static.flickr.com/3423/3307176063_71f47305c4_m.jpg width=196 height=240 alt=Berry 12w 5 d-2 //abr /br /Even though the pics are bad, I had to share them because Im just so excited that the little one is still in there and apparently doing well.br clear=all /

i know its a short month, but how can february already almost be over? im not really complaining, though, because the end of february means almost DST again and almost the first day of spring and almost the end of (well, in theory, not always in practice) this freaking cold that i am so TIRED of. its about now each year when i begin to long for simple things--putting on shoes without deciding what socks to wear; being able to shave off some time getting out the door because theres no coats/scarves/mittens; feeling a little more free in the car because said winter wear isnt making me feel like randy from a christmas story; knowing that i can just go out and get in the car and not have to warm it up to remove frost or ice. you see, i can be a simple person, as not having to worry about any of those things makes me really happy. br /br /i have sucked at baby updates and really at any talk related to Berry. part of it is laziness, but its also more complicated than that. isnt it always? to procrastinate a little more, theres something ive spent way too much time thinking about and im looking to make some sense of it. SO, i dont need a label, but im wondering what you call yourself when youre not technically infertile yet getting a take home baby has been a problem. you can get pregnant, but have trouble staying that way. [let me say now for people i dont see on TTC sites that knock on wood, everything is okay at the moment with this pregnancy] br /br /adding another layer this to is that whatever you call this, it would be secondary _________. we have one kid. we got her fairly easily, something we are even more grateful and thankful for given what its taken to get this far with #2. i know no matter what i say about anger, bitterness and devastation regarding our 3 losses, i can take comfort in having one child. but that doesnt erase the pain of november 2007-november 2008. yet its a different pain than going through 12 months of, say, all negative pregnancy tests. of never seeing that second line appear.br /br /and now were 12w4d along and im feeling displaced again. hope is knocked up with what *may* be a keeper and it still doesnt feel real. well, real to me, maybe. im not the one suffering from nausea and migraines that cannot be properly medically treated because the meds are questionably toxic to inside babies. miscarriages and ectopics do not equate to infertility, but one similarity, i think, is the wondering why this is happening and whats making it happen. the need for answers is overwhelming, and it only hurts more when there are no clear medical reasons for infertility or recurrent losses. to now be pregnant and approaching the second trimester makes me feel like a fraud among my in/subfertile friends, yet i am still no where near taking that extra deep breath of relief. we met with our new OB last week when hope was almost 12 weeks, and at one point NewDoctor made a comment about how, at this point, our risk is for miscarriage is quite small. i kept silent because it was the first time meeting this woman and i didnt want her to think i was a total and utter freak. but when those words came out of her mouth i wanted to shush her, wanted to stick my fingers in my ears and say lalalalala, i cannnnnt heaaaaar you. i know she was *trying* be to helpful, but frankly, the whole youve made it X far and the risk for X is greatly decreased means nothing to me. nothing. people on our due date boards on FF are still losing babies. its a very strange feeling to still be on the other side of those postings. to still be part of the group and not being the one saying goodbye.br /br /and....i guess i sort of got to the complicated nature of writing pregnancy updates here....but ill have to finish later because nap time is over for quinn and the living room is a scary toddler disaster that should be cleaned up before hope comes home.

ul class=loudtwitterliem19:54/em headache and pukey most of the weekend. HATE ruining my time off. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1238856813#/a/li liem09:40/em is SO mad that Launchcast bit it. Ive dedicated years of my life to perfecting my radio station. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1240952842#/a/li liem09:52/em @a href=http://twitter.com/swillardswillard/a yes, but Launch was SO great. Better than any of the others. Now theyve tossed all my ratings in the crapper. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1240992078#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem12:33/em @a href=http://twitter.com/darthramidarthrami/a No need to mail! Just found out that my friend @swillard has some and hes here in town. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1231306024#/a/li liem09:33/em heading to cosi this am. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1234221723#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem19:18/em @a href=http://twitter.com/swillardswillard/a Is she ok? a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1224904404#/a/li liem19:23/em doesnt know why my friend at work had to tell me in great detail about the woman who had a miscarriage AT WORK yesterday. 5.5 months along a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1224917297#/a/li liem10:27/em bad morning full of headaches and puking. Why am I at work??? a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1226950515#/a/li liem11:13/em @a href=http://twitter.com/thatjenthatjen/a Quinn LOVES it. She does the tests, the yoga/strength stuff, soccer, skiing. I kneel and help her, but some she can do herself. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1227117616#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem21:27/em Sorry for the delay. Everything was great at the ultrasound! Baby standing on his/her head and hopping. Pics at flickr. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1221353895#/a/li liem07:55/em Ugh. Just figured out that I have a 9-4 meeting today... and an 8:30 to 9 before that. Oh and I have no input, simply a figurehead. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1222658585#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem09:17/em heading to polaris to let the beastie run free in the playland a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1215345815#/a/li liem10:39/em done at the mall. headed to pei wei. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1215580088#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem09:06/em working on taxes and dancing with Quinn - at the same time. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1212331177#/a/li liem10:33/em out of the house. trader joes, then chilis a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1212495243#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem16:34/em three day weekend! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1207900810#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem13:30/em stopped at ruby tuesday in morgantown. quinn is eating like she has not for days - oh wait, she hasnt a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1192694826#/a/li liem14:42/em a href=http://tinyurl.com/c7wh5btinyurl.com/c7wh5b/a from Monongalia, WV: back on the road. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1192920142#/a/li liem14:43/em a href=http://tinyurl.com/co9g8ftinyurl.com/co9g8f/a from Monongalia, WV: back on the road. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1192923723#/a/li liem14:44/em a href=http://tinyurl.com/be2dgstinyurl.com/be2dgs/a from Monongalia, WV: back on the road. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1192927564#/a/li liem15:57/em a href=http://tinyurl.com/cyr552tinyurl.com/cyr552/a from Belmont, OH: ohio! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1193158941#/a/li liem17:47/em basically home. stopping briefly at grocery store a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1193505069#/a/li liem20:18/em home. ate/fed kid. Q in bed (mean as a snake). All cats accounted for. laundry going. Thinking that I will hit the sack early -- hopefully a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1193923891#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem15:56/em at smithsonians with jude and jen a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1189732726#/a/li liem18:12/em Finally picked out some food to order. Hopefully we dont kill the children before it arrives. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1190051905#/a/li liem21:04/em Quinn asleep for an hour, freshly showered, load of laundry done... but nothing packed up. Leaving in the AM. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1190471497#/a/li liem09:56/em we are driving a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1192021300#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem13:30/em in morgantown. had lunch. getting gas then back on the road. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1180550595#/a/li liem15:32/em q has been asleep for a half hour. hopefully just an hour and a half driving to go. knock knock a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1180928167#/a/li liem07:29/em awake and starving for an hour. family still crashed out. why didnt we pack any quiet snacks? a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1182968090#/a/li liem09:24/em on the metro. q is such a tourist. she keeps yelling whee! a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1183241757#/a/li liem09:33/em at the building museum. fyi the doors are open already. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1183266085#/a/li liem10:01/em we are in the play area now with dre and elsie and fams. only ones here. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1183347649#/a/li liem11:05/em snacking with the same gang plus chris and penny plus twins a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1183551818#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem19:10/em getting my hair cut a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1174701739#/a/li liem08:09/em How can I POSSIBLY work today with all of the stuff we have to get done before tomorrow?? a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1176161988#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem15:57/em cant believe how much my neck hurts. I pulled muscles in it Friday when I was puking in the car. *charming* a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1170963939#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

today would have been the EDD of the ectopic pregnancy. our imbolc baby. i really loved the imbolc connection and now i really hate that its a day that people who care take note of. and despite the awful andie macdowell, i love the movie Groundhog Day. now it sort of feels like salt in the wound. maybe by next year it wont sting as much. being knocked up on an EDD is better than the opposite, ill give you that. but it all sucks donkey balls.

ul class=loudtwitterliem11:34/em @a href=http://twitter.com/swillardswillard/a Canton a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1167133583#/a/li liem12:30/em Well, Im showered and dressed. Now what? Hmmm... maybe some lunch. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1167244380#/a/li liem08:30/em Today is the est. due date for our Little Groundhog. Sad. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1169742267#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy

ul class=loudtwitterliem11:15/em misses her girls and wonders when theyll come home. a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1167094973#/a/li liem11:34/em @a href=http://twitter.com/swillardswillard/a Canton a href=http://twitter.com/hopemcg/statuses/1167133583#/a/li/ulAutomatically shipped by a href=http://www.loudtwitter.comLoudTwitter/abrbr /Yes, I *AM* this lazy